Current mood:	anxious
Current music:	"crush"~Gavin Degraw

this is just a few hours of a day!! lol
Alright well if you havent noticed by now Shawn and I are great again! I'm so glad!! He and Jen had to break up... oh well... anyways... I was with Kimmy last night and we went to town. We were hangin out with Robert, Kevin,Chris, Dakota, Andrew, Ryan, Jana, Kate, Alley, Justin, Jeff, Dave, Serena and Casey. I got out of the car to go hug Kevin and he was like pullin me toward him and I was like wtf! He goes "What you dont wanna kiss me?!" and I was like "Kevin please u kno I do"... So he pulled me close to him and juss kissed me! Ugh it was amazing!!!!!!! We made out like all night!! He keeps sayin he wants to ask me out but he has to figure out where hes gonna live first he might be movin to NY. I have been in love with Kevin since I was in 7th grade! Thats sooooo long!!!! Anyways I'm excited I have drivers ed tonite Katrina starts tonite and I get to see Kevin! I hate boys like I still have some sort of feelings for Kris I still like Magno and Cleveton and I love Kevin... how am I gonna chose?!!

Anyways I called Erica today and I think I'm gonna have her come stay with me for a week on the 23rd. I'm so excited I miss her!!!! When she comes I'm gonna bring her to Club 11!! She'll love it!!!! We are gonna have such a good time I always do with her! I told her about Eddie dieing and she felt so bad... I have yet to tell her about Kris.... I'm not sure if I want to... I haven't told her about Cleveton and John either. Oh well she's my sister I love her and she loves me and I know I can.... she might think of me a lil different but oh well...I am who I am right?!

So I think Kimmy finally has the money to bail Will out of jail. I'm glad I feel so bad that he's in there.... It's gonna be weird tho like I'm gonna wanna chill with Kimmy and Will is gonna be around... you know?! I honestly miss being with Will he was the first guy to ever make me always walk around with a smile on my face... and he always wanted to see me.

I dont know what I'm gonna do about Kris comin here tomarrow. Shawn says hes gonna get him to come here I dont have a clue how he's gonna pull that off but honestly I hope he does... I hope either Shawn or myself can talk some sense into him... he is acting like such a dick and he has no reason to be! Shawn is MY friend Nancy is MY friend not his I mean maybe now they're friends but he needs to chill out about me tellin them... its my bizness as much as it is his and it isn't like I told anyone from where he lives.... only people in New Milford and that shouldn't matter... but honestly I care about him and I would love to be with him and I kno I can't because of where he lives and everything but I juss wish it could work!!! Well I'm done for now maybe I'll have more to write later!! xoxo ~*Beaner*~